Go tell it on the mountain...

I have been struggling with some tough decisions lately. Racking my brain to figure out the right choice. Praying that I make the best decision for me and my family. Talking it out. Weighing different options. Leaning on my husband for support. And during this all I have just come to love my husband more and more everyday. He has been 100% supportive of my changing decision every day, has listened to my rants, smiled when I needed him to, hugged me when I needed one and offered a different point-of-view of what has been going on. I know in my heart that I married the right man for me. He is the calm that I need daily, the strength that has gotten me through some shaky times. So you thought this was going to be a post on what my decision is? Nope, I will tell all when I know all... It is just to let the Blog World know what a wonderful man I am married to. And to let my children know what a wonderful father they have. To let my family know that I love my husband with all my heart and have a deep growing respect for him. This is me screaming it from a mountain top....

What I did instead...

I had every intention of just staying home today but I decided to do this instead....
Camryn got her ears pierced... Now maybe people will stop saying what a "pretty boy" she is. Seriously? Pretty boy! How dare they....

See...She wasn't mad about it at all...

Well ok she wasn't thrilled either....

Not sure what to do...

As I sit here today writing this I am overcome with the sense of "What the heck?" Why you might ask? Well, today is the first day that is is just me and Camryn! Crazy huh? It brought flashbacks of Cole and how EASY (yup I said it) 1 child is, how amazing 2 children are and how exhilarating 3 children are. Life takes on such different prospectives. At the beginning of your child journey you are so in awe of this little being and what they do and you wonder when they will sleep through the night so you can get back to your normal sleep schedule (which for me is very important, I don't function well in the afternoon on 3 hours of sleep) or when they will walk and talk. And then the next one comes and he is a special needs child who came home with a feeding tube and weighing just 10 pounds and 6 months, he hadn't bonded with anyone and had to learn how to smile, how to be a baby. So with Carson everything was "lets's just get him through this next struggle, through this next milestone." Now that I have 3 I want Camryn to be little forever, afraid that I will miss all that she is. That she will be lost in the shuffle of a family of 5. So today I think I will just stay in bed and cuddle with her. Ok, not that practical but do I really want to start that LONG list of crap that I have to do when she will only be this small once? Nope.... So, off to bed we go.

First, Second and Third....

I feel like the last few weeks have gone by in a whirlwind. I started back to work full time, Carson turned 2 and started preschool and Cole just keep inching closer and closer to being 4! Camryn gets bigger and bigger everyday and My Mom, Kristi, Jennifer and I went to see Wicked (which by the way was amazing, I HIGHLY recommend seeing it) Is it really only January 16th? Wow time really does fly.

I just think this picture is funny...(and really don't know how to organize my pictures to be the order I want them to be...So if anyone can offer some advice that would be great!) The Third Turd...

Carson's first day of Preschool.

Second Birthday! He loves his GREEN cupcakes :)

Crazy Hannah...

Beautiful Haylie and Mia

What the heck Jayden?

AARRRHHH Matey!!!

Wanna walk the plank?

Before the mess...

Round Table Pizza is the best!

The new year has started off pretty busy...